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Wednesday, 6 February 2019

Missing In Action


Missing In Action

I see you very clearly at the start - a living, breathing boy
a Victorian green certificate carefully clerk-inked in neat copperplate,
hard clear evidence of your entry to the world

Again, newly brothered with your Mum and Dad, my unknown great-grandparents,
family members grouped in rows and columns, neat names in the census
together at century’s turn

And yet again, a decade later, stone-mason’s apprentice, following your father’s trade
young, strong, single, patriot to the country’s cause , enlisted, marching away with the Pals,
and then – nothing, vanished from the face of the Earth,
swallowed by Belgian mud, but I’m only guessing,
your service records destroyed, ironically lost in another Blitz

Never married, no death recorded, no longer there when you were needed
dead-ends, as if you had never existed, a withered branch of the family tree
no twigs, no buds, no leaves
gaps in the photographs where you should have been standing
gatherings you ought to have attended, children you never had
cousins you failed to provide
and sometimes I can hear your voice filling empty spaces in conversations
in the folk-lore of family

Already long departed before I came, not here to meet my arrival
I could never reach out and touch you
it’s as if you’re still missing in action

Copyright Andy Fawthrop 2019

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